Unbearable Suffering: A Personal Battle With the Puzzling Suffering of Cluster Headaches
It began on a overcast weekday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a teacher, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a sharp sensation erupted behind my one eye. Then came rapid jolts, reminiscent of electric shocks. As each class progressed, the pain eased and then came back with greater force. Multiple times that day I left a colleague with activities and ran to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I tried ibuprofen, but the pain remained unbearable.
The attacks appeared repeatedly that fall, and again in spring, soon establishing an annual cycle. September and October were the worst, then the late winter. I could predict the routine: a warning sensation in the morning, early pangs on the train, full-on pain in class by 9.30am. In late 2019, a GP eventually referred me to a specialist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.
This condition often start with intense pain around one eye that persists up to several hours.
Approximately 1 in 1000 people are affected by the condition, and men are more frequently diagnosed. Attacks usually begin with abrupt, excruciating agony focused on a single eye that peaks within minutes and lasts for as long as three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, every day or several times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or face sweating. I have an episodic type, which arrives in periodic bouts; some patients have chronic cluster headaches, defined by the lack of extended symptom-free periods.
What unites sufferers is the intensity. One study scored the pain at 9.7 10, more severe than bone fractures or pancreatitis. A separate discovered 64% of cluster headache patients experienced thoughts of self-harm amid bouts; the number dropped to four percent when they were not in pain.
One patient, in her seventies, a long-term patient from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her attacks began when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the floor and hit my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through her youth. Drinking in her adolescence, similar to several causes, made things more intense. After drinking sherry at her school leaving party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the transport home.
Her family often interpreted her attacks as drunken behavior. Understanding eventually came from her parent and then from her husband, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after relocating, but often concealed her illness. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to time off during episodes. Her breakthrough identification came in the early 2000s at a national hospital.
Still, the inability to organize daily activities around erratic attacks took its toll. She especially hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her family during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the simple freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.
Headaches have been described across history. “The first account of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write experts in a publication on the subject. They linked the disease to an malevolent entity who afflicted his victims' heads.
Ancient medical records suggest bizarre remedies for what modern observers would describe as a migraine. In the middle ages, severe headache was identified as a distinct disorder, with therapies ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more folk cures.
It was a Dutch doctor who provided the initial detailed description of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very intense headache happening and disappearing each day at fixed hours”.
The disorder were only officially recognised by global medical committees in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a major blood vessel which delivers blood to the head. Leading specialists in treating the condition explain this.
In 1998, researchers published the findings of a study for which they had induced attacks in patients and observed the episodes in a imaging machine. The data, featured in a prominent journal, showed activation of the a brain region, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they felt better.
In spite of such advances, diagnosis remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's attacks began in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he underwent multiple surgeries before finally being diagnosed in 2014, after a doctor looked up his complaints.
Specialists say delays in diagnosis and managing occur because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in severe pain,” one says. He works by ruling out other common head pain conditions, such as tension-type headache, before confirming the disorder. A detailed history is crucial: on which part of the head do signs appear? For how long? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Specific features such as tearing, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be referred to dedicated clinics. But many first arrive to A&E or are given inadequate therapies.
Dorothy Chapman, 78, has suffered from the condition for most of her adult life, although she has been free from an attack since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars pulled because dental professionals misinterpreted her symptoms. She believes dentists still need greater education. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who responded. The author recalls calling a support line during an attack in 2021; a reassuring volunteer talked them through oxygen therapy and drugs until the episode eased.
Official guidelines on treatment advise that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a specific medication delivered by injection. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic choices include verapamil, which reportedly helps manage the attacks of some individuals.
But consultant specialists believe the official guidelines need revising to reflect a clearer clinical process and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, timing is critical: “The duration of the cycle dictates the approach.” Short bouts with occasional episodes are handled with acute treatment alone. Longer or more intense periods require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an injection into the area of the head where the pain is that decreases nerve activity.
The national guidelines need updating to reflect a